Career Changes

Almost a year ago I started feeling the call to come back home to be with my kids. I wrestled and wrestled with the decision. I kept waiting on things at work to slow down so my part-time job could truly be part-time again. I kept waiting and waiting on God to give me an answer. Because the work PRCO does is so good, I didn't want to let God down by stepping back.. I have LOVED, LOVED, LOVED my job and everything the PRCO stands for, but I was no longer able to manage the hours without having to consider full-time day care for the kids. That was not something either of us were willing to do, nor did it make sense financially. My stress level was way higher than it should be and I broke out in hives a few times after a stressful day. Finally, Michael and I did a 5 day Daniel Fast to seek guidance on what we should do. The answer was very clear to both of us, but it was still a scary thing. The PRC had been my baby, my 3rd child for 4 years and I had watched it grow from a small little ministry with 2 staff (less than 200 visits my first year) to a fully functioning medical clinic with 6 employees with and estimated 2000 client visits this year. It was HARD to imagine passing that on to someone else. Would they keep it going? Would they let it fail and all those women wouldn't have a place to go? Finally, it was as if God knocked me on the head and said "Hey Lindsay, it's My ministry, not yours!" Oh yeah...



Although my salary certainly didn't make me the breadwinner, we really depended on it so in order for me to stop working we had to make some major financial adjustments to our family budget. At first neither of us thought it was possible but when after reading Crazy Love by Frances Chan, we realized that a lot of the "extras" really don't matter. What matters is that our children are loved and that we raise them to love God and love others.






We made some cuts from the budget and immediately started living on the new budget even though I wouldn't stop work for several months. I'll admit, although I was 100% sure we were making the right decision, there were days when I wondered if we could truly do it. One afternoon, I "mourned" some of the things we may not be able to do such as rent a jupiter jump at the kids birthday parties or go on vacation but in the end, if I get to be home with them everyday and know that they are taken care of, none of that will matter.

And it's true, with all of the fun we've been having so far we haven't missed the extras so far. I was blown away by the applicants for my job and even got to be involved in the interview process. The woman who took my was MORE qualified than I ever way and I'm confident she will do a wonderful job.

During the process someone said to me: "You can always go back to work but you can never get this time with your kids back."